Loving Myself
Posted 07-21-2009 at 03:56 PM by Trendolyn
On My quest to self love I have encountered quite a few road blocks.... namely people that don't love themselves.... I found out that some of these people are in my circle and their self hate is infectious. I now know that there are people that I would have never thought of not communicating with regularly are actually those that at this point in my life I will have to love at a safe distant ... at least until I am able to be the influence and not be the one influenced. I can't say that I have conquered all my demons of self hatred but I will say that GOD has and with HIM reigning over me I will be well on my way to the desire of my heart in this area.
If your out there and reading this try this analogy on for size.
Take an apple and a bag of oranges. Place the apple into the bag of oranges. Leave it there until the smell of the orange penetrates the skin of the apple. OK got it?
All right then take a few oranges out peel and eat.... tastes like an orange right? Now take the apple out smell it's skin..... smells like an orange doesn't it? Puncture the skin with a knife or finger nail..... It's still an apple isn't it? Right!
Taking something and placing it somewhere else doesn't make it something else. It may smell like it's counterparts and sometimes (though not with fruit) look the same. But when you open up it's core (insert mind) It will be the same.
Change is something that can only happen with a sound (not fickle or double minded) decision from that person and seeking the holy spirit.
I have often been hurt by hurting people and not able to understand why it happened. They don't do better the next time b/c they don't know better.
Cleansing acts for the week are as follows:
1. Make a list of people I love.
2. Crossing those names off the list that are not for the best of me.
3. Praying without cease for them.
4. Continue my virtue to self love.
This may seem like nothing but it is a big deal. Change is hard and sometimes lonely.
I don't want to stay in sameness. Despair is no longer an adjective I want to describe me.
Pain is a part of life, Self inflicted pain is self hatred!
I love myself (well I'm getting there)!
If your out there and reading this try this analogy on for size.
Take an apple and a bag of oranges. Place the apple into the bag of oranges. Leave it there until the smell of the orange penetrates the skin of the apple. OK got it?
All right then take a few oranges out peel and eat.... tastes like an orange right? Now take the apple out smell it's skin..... smells like an orange doesn't it? Puncture the skin with a knife or finger nail..... It's still an apple isn't it? Right!
Taking something and placing it somewhere else doesn't make it something else. It may smell like it's counterparts and sometimes (though not with fruit) look the same. But when you open up it's core (insert mind) It will be the same.
Change is something that can only happen with a sound (not fickle or double minded) decision from that person and seeking the holy spirit.
I have often been hurt by hurting people and not able to understand why it happened. They don't do better the next time b/c they don't know better.
Cleansing acts for the week are as follows:
1. Make a list of people I love.
2. Crossing those names off the list that are not for the best of me.
3. Praying without cease for them.
4. Continue my virtue to self love.
This may seem like nothing but it is a big deal. Change is hard and sometimes lonely.
I don't want to stay in sameness. Despair is no longer an adjective I want to describe me.
Pain is a part of life, Self inflicted pain is self hatred!
I love myself (well I'm getting there)!
Total Comments 3
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i 100% agree with you because im trying to do the same thing. All of the people in my life that treat me as if i dnt have feelings or im not good enough im no longer going to deal with. Its a hard process though because im still young but i think its better to start now then to allow negative people to break me down to the point where i cant become a strong woman.Posted 07-22-2009 at 06:36 PM by avey06
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I love your goals, TREN!Posted 07-22-2009 at 08:02 PM by denalove
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Bless you Tren, your cleansing acts are fantastic!Posted 07-25-2009 at 02:45 PM by Marsy
